Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Sweet sound.....

I wanna spend my life with you...such strong lyrics. I think this video depicts love in its purest form that everybody would like to feel in one specific moment of their life...if not forever.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qsk8QQj5Nrc

Thursday, November 5, 2009

The Great Fall of Icarus.




If only it was as easy to dream such as Icarus did with his wax wings. Eventually, as with Icarus, the wax wings melt and we fall into the abyss, letting go of a dream.

Monday, October 26, 2009

Fulfillment and happiness...

So, ok...This is going to take me a while to get into the hang of this blog stuff, but I´m willing to give it a go.

Recently, after breaking up with my boyfriend of 3 plus years, I have come to a crossroad in my life. Although I am very young and quite immature in many ways, I have found myself lingering in certain topics which, to me, seem so very important. Topics such as fulfillment, happiness and what all of this means to me and my life.

I know it sounds kind of like a beat down topic that requires thought and trascendence, but why have a blog then, right?

Going back to my point, so I´m at a crossroad. I´m 25, have a great job, am truly happy for the first time in a very long time. (Attached to this blog entry I have added the Paradox of our Age by his holiness the Dalai Lama. Really makes you think about happiness and fulfillment in a whole different way.)

I don´t know where humanity went wrong. When so many things became so much more important than basic needs such as breathing, eating, loving and dreaming. I just don´t get where we (yes, and I say we because then I would be a total hypocrite to my generation) get off on the stupidest things... A perfect toned body, beautiful face, the right clothes, the right brand, the popular music, the newest mobile-phone, the computer, the TV, the fake phony friends, the true friends that live in amidst, getting sex, not getting sex, how, when and where to get it, having a guy in your life, not having one...It just seems like everything could be the beginning or ending of a nervous breakdown.

What really drives me crazy is the lack of communication, lack of conciousness, lack of saying what you think, feel, loathe, wish and desire, lack of feeling, hurting, understanding, honesty and most of all fear....

I just don´t understand where we got to the point where anything that makes us happy is completely dependant with an exterior element. When did happiness become a matter of what we have or lack of? When did we stop caring and savoring the most precious moments in life and, maybe for one mere second, just feel completely fulfilled? When did happiness and fulfillment become such an expensive luxury?

Going back to the crossroad, so I´m enduring in a newly found road towards finding my happiness and my fulfillment, regardless of what anyone thinks, or wants me to do or say or how to act, how to think, come about life....

As a woman, I find that many times we are judged as to how happy we are and we are only happy when we have certaing things in our lives. A guy for starters. My question is, where is it written that happiness has a direct connection with only having some guy in your life? (May I add that this is regardless if that man doesn´t love you or even get you).

After this nasty break-up I had where I felt completely un-happy and miserable as a woman, I decided how after placing my happiness in this guy for so long made me feel so miserable, I had to look for alternate routes to find what I truly wanted for my future, my self.

And so, I leave this little lesson here, why should any one of us, man or woman, permit others to decide for us what it is that we want? What it is that we are? What is our essence? and none-the-less what should make us happy and fulfilled?

Because, you see, I´ve found that I have to place all that trust and effort in no one else other than myself. People will come and go but I will always remain and If I don´t nurture myself and develop what I call the best relationship I will ever have (the relationship with myself), no one will be able to do that for me nor do I think I will ever permit anyone such an honor, for it is my and my very own duty.